Psalm 139:19-24 (NRSV)-
19 O that you would kill the wicked, O God, and that the bloodthirsty would depart from me- 20 those who speak of you maliciously, and lift themselves up against you for evil! 21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord? And do I not loathe those who rise up against you? 22 I hate them with perfect hatred; I count them my enemies. 23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts. 24 See if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
We all do it. We share smiling photos with our spouses, knowing full well an argument and fight erupted just moments before. We spend so much time making our food “Instaworthy”, it is cold by the time we start to eat it.
Everyone is guilty of putting only the best version of themselves on social media, both in what we show and what we leave out. We leave out what we do not want people to know. And, we leave out our faults, because we are afraid that they will not like us.
We do not have to worry about God not likely us due to our faults. He knows all of our faults. He knows our mistakes. And, he knows everything about us. Yet, he still loves and accepts us.
In Psalm 139, David marvels at the way God knows everything about him. At the end of the psalm, he embraces the opportunity to be vulnerable, by asking God to reveal his sin. In doing so, he prays, “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts. See if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”
David’s prayer at the end of Psalm 139 is a bold one, especially for him. He did plenty of sinful things as the King of Israel, including committing adultery and having someone murdered. Yet, because David was willing to admit his sin and turn away from it, God continued to use him to do great things.
Like David, God uses us to do great things. And, hw often pushes us towards our best step on the other side of a vulnerable prayer. So, when we ask God to examine our hearts, he will reveal where we need to make changes to live the joy-filled life that we have in Christ.
Today, let’s stop feeling like we have to impress God by being vulnerable, bold, and embracing the joyful life that he has given each of us.
Father God, thank you for the example of David’s vulnerability. Please teach us to follow his example by being vulnerable and bold in our prayers. Please guide us to be changed through our prayers. And, please help us to go deeper in our relationship and fellowship with Christ. In doing so, please guide us to embrace the joy-filled life that we have in Him. In His name, we pray. Amen!